sculpturedays

While some of my friends have just turned 18, im turning 19 in another 1 and a half month.

i thought that i have moved on, but sometimes i still think about him. Why do i have such infatuation for an asshole? Must i really see him with someone to make me give up? Stupid brain, really. It’s kind of getting on my nerves.

Actually, if i think about it carefully, its more of how i mishandled the situation than the lingering feelings. I mean, all my friends and my girlfriends are telling me that he’s just a piece of shit: i should have done this, i should have said that… i always thought that if i ever loved someone, i should pour my feelings into in and do what my heart tells me to do, because that’s being myself.

Then i realized: This is not the world of Disney, im not even a princess in reality.

So yeah lah, i keep asking myself why i didn’t do this and that X100. And when i was asked: Don’t you know that by doing this = yadahyadahyadah… Then i also asked myself why didn’t i think of that?

But anyway, it’s over. I need to stop imagining if he would turn back and replaying scenes in my head again and again…

Had a great day with my secondary peeps yesterday. Had awesome food, had awesome time. And helped me sleep better yesterday night because i was freaking tired after that! Strange how we’ve gone on separate ways doing different things but still can talk about so many stuffs. almost midnight already still haven’t say enough yet… hahaha… All upgrade become aunties liao…

This semester have quite a number of modules to my liking. Like Music SAS! Wooooh! For some reason, im really addicted to Suemitsu and the Suemith. His piano is so happy… …

(thinks) Pianist bf? I think very hard to meet a pianist already, let alone a bf from the Music Department… -0- Why they separate music and art in different campus? Don’t you know that music and art are inter-dependent? Hahaha! Excuses to meet pro musicians. I mean like, come on lah… sculpture workshop’s “music” will totally overwhelm the music from the orchestra.

Results are out!!!!!!!!!

OMG… I can already see myself scoring GPA3.0 for graduation.

The most shocking thing was scoring an A for Digital and Time-based Media… i mean… i think my Flash animation was kinda, well… crappy… And I expected my elective to get C also since Ms Tang was kinda strict also even though, during feedback, i did ask for a B and she gave it to me…

So happy… well, the only thing that is bringing me down now is trying to find my lost Year 1 result slips… Sigh…

Time to last this blog for another 4 years…

My bank account is in deep shit again… i need a job again but for some reason, they like to reply my application when i’ve returned to school or when i’ve gotten another job… -0- Apply for events helper or art teacher job… seriously, i HATE having to serve locals. it’s like a suicide job for getting scoldings for the littlest things… or well, maybe im the kind of person who don’t really understand the needs of customers… Hah! I wouldn’t last in a 5-star restaurant on Orchard Road…

Anyway, since i’m completely bored, i shall do a little reflection on my previous blog on blogger… Seriously, dance changed my life. I went from a nerdy, goody-2 shoes into a complete slack… Hahaha… but that’s not what i really meant… i think dance changed me to into a slightly more automatic and confident person. I’m not afraid to speak my mind out now compared to say, primary 6, when I’d just stumble on my words and let people push me around.

Then after that i get to do awesome things like applying for my first job and school. Awesome times…

Now i gotta deal with the next inspiration of my life: Sculpture~ Hohohoho~